This morning - 68.6kg. Offically healthy weight range again! YAY!... although I'm sure it wont stay that low as I didn't eat dinner last night (I just wasn't hungry *sigh*). I'm trying to eat only when I'm hungry at the moment (not because I'm bored etc). It makes things very interesting!

Anyhow, good to see the scales decreasing!!!

My health journey.

Weight 69.2. Fluctuation because I ate too much yesterday. I got home and was just hungry so I ate fruit and nut and picked at the left overs from last night. Not a binge though, which is a total win.

I'm having lots of problems with my asthma at the moment - it's really impacting on exercise. I can't do as much as I used to. So annoying!!! Stupid asthma. I can still walk do weights etc, but nothing high cardio impact like step. I go to the class, suffer, have to stop for not being able to breathe. I really need to make a doctors appointment - it's been going on longer than a month and I thought it would have been gone by now.

In other news I'm wanting to see Ponyo at the cinema. I can't help but love Miyazaki. He makes such fabulous anime. It starts thursday so I reckons the Luke and I will go then (I'm taking the day off work). I think I know which movie I'll review for Japanese class now. YAY!

An update - I'm feeling good

I bought new scales so I can't be sure that the weight I am now is less than what I was... I'm pretty confident it is, because I have been really good with my points. I'm doing 20 points at the moment, although I allow myself a 2 point fluctuation (over or under). I tend to go over more, but I exercise so much it doesn't really matter too much if I go over by 1 or 2.

My new scales are awesome! They measure bone density, water (which I need, I hate drinking water), body fat, & bmi). LOVE THESE SCALES! They also like to remind me that my weight is a little high, which it doesn't hurt getting the reminder...

Anyhow, so the good news. My weight = 69kg! That's 200g over a healthy weight range. Woohoo! So happy... I think my first goal was reduced to 68.5 so that's what I'll aim for.

Weight to mini goal: -500g

Weight to GOAL: - 6kg

p.s. I changed my surname. YAY!

Gotta get those binge attacks under control. I can recognise them now and know that I'm not hungry, but I still have to try and stop myself. 1 day is not a disaster. Gotta remember that! I think part of the problem was being REALLY hungry yesterday. And not having enough food on me.

Anyhow, not weighing in today by choice. Feck - it would be really high!

Breakfast: cereal & milk - 2.5

Coffee - 2.5

fruit salad 2.5 (pineapple, banana, strawberries, mandarin, apple) (5.5/2= 2.5)

soup 2.5

salad 1.5

risotto 5.5

TOTAL: 17 - yep much better outlook. Infact I'll throw in some rice crackers (1 point) =18!!!

Thursday

Thursday - 69.6kg

So I weighed in. I was genuinely excited about weighing in today. I had checked my weight on my dodgy bathroom scales - it showed I was less than last weeks weigh in. So I decided to do it on the real wii fit scales. GAINED!!! 400g. DAMN IT!!!

So starting weight (AGAIN) is 69.6kg... I haven't been behaving myself so I shouldn't be surprised but it's just so annoying when the other scales had told me to expect a loss. Damn those bathroom scales.

So starting my daily weigh ins. I've set myself a few goals which should be easy to stick to. By next week (Wednesday) I am to have lost 1kg. By the end of the month, I plan to lose 2kg. I've got to get myself back into a healthy weight range. I am going to weigh myself everyday. I really think it might help me behave - well I hope it does. Fuck those bathroom scales in their shiny metal behind.

Today's menu:

Breakfast: cereal, milk, coffee= 5

Morning tea: chippies, carrots = 1

Lunch-Fruit salad: strawberries, mandarin, pineapple, banana (2.5). 100g yoghurt 1=3.5

Afternoon tea: rice cakes with vegemite (not sure of points)

Dinner: asparagus, pumpkin + risotto =6.5

TOTAL: 16+ rice cakes.

Obviously whatever I'm doing isn't working for me. I don't know what to do to make things work?

I'm not weighing in today. I know it'll be bad. I'm going to try the more natural life style again. I know, it's crazy. But I honestly think if I can make myself cut out the crap I may be okay.

Breakfast: GF ceral 2 & Milk .5 =2.5

Morning tea: coffee 2.5, chippies 1 =3.5

Lunch: fruit salad pineapple .5, mandarin .5, strawberries .5, apple 1, banana 1 + 100g of full fat youghurt 1 =4.5

Afternoon tea: carrot = 0

Dinner: Rice dish: veggies 1, cheese 1.5, tofu 2, rice 3.5 = 8

TOTAL: 18.5

I'll probably do Vegemite as well on rice cakes to make up the difference :D

EDIT: Going to weigh myself EVERYDAY!!! Fuck this yo-yo-ing. In a weeks time I WILL BE 68.5 kg (1.5 kilo loss).

Had pumpadums with dinner about 1.5 pointes (last night - so I went over by half). I don't know what it is, but for some reason everytime I do a pump class my weight creeps up again. It's so annoying!!!

In other news, today's menu:

Breakfast: yoghurt, coffee, cereal 5.5

Morning tea: chippies + mandarin 1.5

Lunch: soup, fruche 4.5

Afternoon tea: apple 1.5

Dinner: pasta, sauce veggies, the laughing cow cheese = 6.5

TOTAL: 19.5

Exercise=Kendo!

Monday

Well I didn't exactly behave myself on the weekend, but I didn't exactly misbehave either. The scales are showing me some love this morning, so who knows, by Wednesday things might be looking a-ok.

I was reading the latest ww newsletter and read this article: 8 ways not to cheat on a diet. There is some really good advice in there. I usually try to incorporate most of the suggestions, however one really stands out to me - 'Surround yourself with witnesses'. I find that if I am left alone, this is when I am most likely to start binging (I think way too much about food).

Anyhow, menu for the Monday-itis.
Breakfast: cereal, yoghurt, coffee 5.5
Morning tea: apple 1.5
Lunch: homemade sushi + Inari 4
Afternoon tea: Mandarin .5, lollies 1
Dinner: Rice 2, sauce 2, potato 1.5, veg .5 =6
Dessert: yoghurt 1

TOTAL: 19

Meh. It gets a little repetitive doesn't it.

Today's menu:
Breakfast: cereal, yoghurt, fruit, coffee 6
Morning tea: chippies 1
Lunch: yoghurt & soup 4.5
Afternoon tea: 2 ciders (5)
Dinner: Risotto (at least that's the plan - 5)

TOTAL: 21.5

Over by 1.5 (at least I've planned for it), I could always eat something healthier for dinner like salad but you know, that's boring!

Thursday

Soooo I went over my points yesterday by 13. That's right, another binge attack *sigh*. How annoying!!! I did 7 points of exercise yesterday, so I only need to make up for 6 today (of which 5 points will be exercise - i.e walking to and from work :D. I think my binging is getting less frequent, just got to stop it all together now.

Anyhow today's menu:
Breakfast: cearl and milk 2.5
Morning tea: chippies + carrot + coffee (2.5)
Lunch: soup & yoghurt 4.5
Afternoon tea: popcorn 1.5
Dinner: stuffed capiscum (capsicum, rice, cheese, veg = 5)

TOTAL: 16 - hrm if I end up sticking to this I might catch the bus home... :D

Wednesday weigh in - week 4?

Slow and steady wins the race right!? Weigh in 69.2kg. Loss of 300g in 2 weeks... it's a bit slow, but I should be grateful that it's a loss right. So far I've managed to lose 500g. Almost a kilo I guess. Healthy weight range here I come (I think I have about 400g to go or something).

Anyhow, last night I went to Kendo. Was fabulous. I have the biggest blister under my big toe. Walking to work and step tonight should prove rather interesting - especially since I can't actually flatten my big toe at the moment. I was so hungry after I finished though. HUNGRY!!! I had a carrot 0 points and some fruit salad .5 points... at least I went for something healthy YAY!

Today's menu:

Breakfast: cereal, coffee (5)

Morning tea: chippies, carrots, mandarin (1.5)

Lunch: soup, yoghurt (4.5)

Afternoon tea: apple (1.5)

Dinner: Potato, sour cream, cheese, salsa, coleslaw, beetroot, pineapple (5)

TOTAL: 17.5 points. I'm sure I'm forgetting something. Not sure what though! Erm, exercise = walking + step! YAY! (It might be called hobbling and step though lol)

Summary:

Current weight: 69.2kg

Goal weight: 60kg

Lost: -0.5kg

Next goal: - 1.7kg

GOAL: - 9.2 kg

Tuesday

Another day, another menu. I was really good yesterday. Behaved myself like a lady. Not sure what to do about my inability to control myself when it comes to food though. Like I said good 4 days bad the next 3. I was doing okay until I decided to go drink. Maybe I need to restrain from the alcohol for awhile. Yesterday ended up being 19 points with 12ks of walking and 1hr pump session (about 7 points of exercise).

Breakfast: Yoghurt, cereal, fruit =3

Morning tea: apple 1.5, coffee 1.5 =3

Lunch: Noodles 3.5 =3.5

Afternoon tea: Mandarin .5, rice cracker, lollies = 2

Dinner: pasta, cheese (15g), veggies, sauce 7.5

TOTAL: 19

Exercise: Kendo

Oh yeah I weigh in again tomorrow. Cheated today. Looks like I'm sitting at 69.5 again. GRRR! I know I got lower last week when I looked. BAH!!!

Monday

Don't know why I even bother anymore. It's almost a joke to think I could lose some weight now. As if I ever stick to what I write on here... I was so good until Friday night when I drank like a fish wife. Saturday I was hung over as all hell, but comfort ate. Sunday... well you can see the results below. BAH!

Monday:

Breakfast: cereal & milk = 2.5

Morning tea: GF biscuits =1.5

Lunch: Noodles, sauce, veggies =3.5

Afternoon tea: Fruit Salad .5, GF Sandwich 2.5 =3

Dinner: Rice dish (tofu, veg, cheese, rice) =6.5

TOTAL: 17 points... going to the gym tonight to do pump as well. With walking and pump = 5 points exercise

That will cancel out Sunday's effort..

Saturday and Friday is another story. I need to make better alcohol choices.

Sunday

Breakfast: cereal, milk, toast, pb (4)

Morning tea: carrot, apple, chippes (2.5)

Lunch: noodles, veggies, sauce (3.5)

Afternoon tea: pop corn (1.5)

Dinner:

Totally didn't stick to the above:

Breakfast 4

Morning tea 2.5 & sandwich half so 2ish?

Lunch: bread 4 cheese 2.5, vegge burger2 8.5 (shite)

dinner: veggie burger, biscuits, cheese 2+3+1+5

TOTAL::: 28 points... well that would explain why my scales say 70kg again *SIGH*